Every so often it all seems so clear and easy. I'm a child of God and my home is in eternity with Father God. Simple enough right?
Most times thats not the case. I find myself looking for a home in all sorts of temporary things, relationships, hobbies, work, ideas, and even spiritual experiences.
Its confusing, scary, and lonely living between two worlds. Between the present and being called into living a eternal life, and the huge gap between the two types of living.
I have two worlds inside me constantly battling and I experience the joys and the sorrows of both. Though I would gladly give up most, just for peace between the two. To be really honest at times I could not careless which side wins, I just want it to be done. Yet I know I do not grow in peace. I grow in the overcoming of one foe at a time.
I suppose most of this is my doing after all. I have been praying that Father God would move me forward though somethings in my life. Be careful what you pray for.
My experience with life so far. Its hard. Get use to it. In fact welcome the difficulties and face the fears. Pain, sorrow, fear, loneliness, brokenness, confusion is all going to be experienced. At least if you move towards it and receive it, you can face it on your terms. And in the end have something to show for all the battles you've won instead of standing in one place and taking hit after hit.
Home is surely not behind me, nor is it here tonight in this place. By faith, I say, home is somewhere up ahead.
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